Pink-Green-Pixie

It's taken a long time to trust you,
Now I finally do,
I don't want to be without you.
My world is a mess,
in love I give it all,
In return I get so much less.
Your smile shines,
so nice to me,
gentle and kind.
you are a good person,
so beautiful.
Always in my mind.
When we don't talk I miss you.
When we do talk I'm filled with eternal glee.
You see the truth and best in me,
I want to be each other's only.
You're never angry, you never push and shove me.
You always laugh with me,
my silly honey.
We have been hurt a lot,
the girls and boys can be so unkind.
but I want you to know I'm here to comfort you,
you can trust me and I'll support you.
I'm here to listen,
to hug you.
to giggle with you.
smile.
eat candy.
anything you want.
I only want you to have kindness.
<3

So I bought my cousin some books. and a faerie necklace charm/ and peace sign charm. she read the first book in one sitting and loves the faerie. then I have a box together for chelsea and summer. gave other people cards. I got the coziest pajamas, and purple and indigo shirts with hearts on the back, a box of stuff from Chelsea which I haven't received yet ^.^ anyway. A grey kitty insists she moves in and cries outside my window with the other kitties. I want them all but a chipmunk was looking in my door the other day and ran off when I saw it...omg. Anyway, I also got a kindle and my friend is sneaking books on there. it's always a surprise what will be on there >:'3 and same friend tried to guess which movie I was watching and asked all my favorites :3 like land before time and princess bride <3 I also came across an orange dress at a thrift shop that fits me perfectly for reallyu cheap. and it's going to match the orange flowers that grow here heheh. and I'm all snuggly and giggly in cozy warm pjs.

Summertime Sadness-Land del rey


Kiss me hard before you go
Summertime sadness
I just wanted you to know
That baby you're the best

Got my red dress on tonight
Dancing in the dark in the pale moonlight
Got my hair up real big beauty queen style
High heels off, I'm feeling alive

Oh, my God, I feel it in the air
Telephone wires above are sizzling like a snare
Honey I'm on fire I feel it everywhere
Nothing scares me anymore

Kiss me hard before you go
Summertime sadness
I just wanted you to know
That baby you're the best

I've got that summertime, summertime sadness
S-s-summertime, summertime sadness
Got that summertime, summertime sadness

I'm feelin' electric tonight
Cruising down the coast goin' 'bout 99
Got my bad baby by my heavenly side
I know if I go, I'll die happy tonight

Oh, my God, I feel it in the air
Telephone wires above are sizzlin' like your snare
Honey I'm on fire I feel it everywhere
Nothing scares me anymore

Kiss me hard before you go
Summertime sadness
I just wanted you to know
That baby you're the best

I've got that summertime, summertime sadness
S-s-summertime, summertime sadness
Got that summertime, summertime sadness

I think I'll miss you forever
Like the stars miss the sun in the morning skies
Late is better than never
Even if you're gone I'm gonna drive, drive

I've got that summertime, summertime sadness
S-s-summertime, summertime sadness
Got that summertime, summertime sadness

Kiss me hard before you go
Summer time sadness
I just wanted you to know
That baby you're the best

I've got that summertime, summertime sadness
S-s-summertime, summertime sadness
Got that summertime, summertime sadness

Hi deviant people. I have had a life changing couple of months and I am really happy to be where I am now. blah blah blah,
anyway, I just finished a book that was very life changing. It is called Ruby by francesca Lia block. It is about a girl named ruby after the folklore of ruby stones. I have been connected to the stone for awhile and was a lot like ruby from the book. She loved animals and was very in touch with her intuition. She also had red hair! anyway I have been inspired to get a tattoo of the word ''ruby'' on my wrist in the form of thorned letters and some blossoming roses around it. Not just for one reason, but it resembles a ton of life changes and will be a tattoo to prove I have what it takes to overcome tragedy. Also, I am thinking about doing photography related to more nature and stones. I also want to become way more earth based and spend more time exploring the outdoors in oregon. Life truly is beautiful and I am enjoying it even with the loss I have had the past year. Things even out. tonight I received a message on facebook that was so sweet.

''I was trying to post on your wall but your profile won't let me I think you are one of the most sweetest and genuine person ever. I only wish that we could have gotten to know each other more when we still lived nearby. I think you are adorable. Your golden heart radiates out into your beauty. I miss youu''.... it really just made me smile a lot.

I recently had to end a 3 year friendship. I feel sad, but not because I miss that person. But because I gave and got nothing. But I've changed, I stood up for myself. This person who won't be named messaged me on facebook saying I am never there for her. it made me realize she is just a taker. I was there when she was really sick, was there when her first real boyfriend left her, I was there when she got kicked out. I was there when she felt like taking her pain out on me. this time I didn't want to listen. I said goodbye. It honestly takes a lot for me to remove someone from my life. I am the type of person, that once you completely betray me and I know that no more love is there, I am done. I am gone. no more chances. no more open energy for anyone to walk into. None. I am a very loving person. if people are kind, I am kind back. you could have a best friend for life.

Yesterday, I woke up and called my grandma and she and my aunt picked me up to go hangout with my cousin. it was a beautiful rainy october day. we ate halloween candy, and yummy food. It was just nice to visit and a lot of hilarious things were said, but I guess it is always that way with me now that I'm happy again. She told me my youngest cousin said ''you look like little elf children'' to her and her brother. I couldn't quit laughing. and my grandma just says the funniest things to describe younger people. like that young kids together are just a bunch of creatures XDDDD. and when I came home I got to talk to my favo person! that is so cool!!! <3 anyway. I'm happy.